Self-destruction

Self-destruction
I feel enclosed in a hole that’s easy to get out of
I wrap myself in blankets but they no longer feel warm
My skin no more my skin
And the mirror I’ afraid of
A reflection that was my face but now a face that I can’t face
And I’m lost
I don’t know me anymore
But I don’t know if I want to
This feeling I drown in
But inches away from air
I’m finally free
At least that’s what it feels like
To hold my breath and not think
But simply stare
My eyes point to nothing